Saturday, January 06, 2007
~ 3:49 AM ~
i have to make sure i never stay up this late alone at night. thats when all the thoughts and randomness comes spewing out.
just got off a near 2 hour conversation on msn. a few things come to mind..not surprising at all. its would be bliss if i could stop thinking for a minute. dont mind me if i spout rubbish, its really late/early and i can be quite disorientated..
why do people like to think of suicidal thoughts? christians especially, should never ever think of such things. when you accepted Jesus in your heart, you invited Him to stay in you, and killing yourself would be the equivalent of killing Him!! why find more reasons to atone for whatever wrong-doings you have commited? do you really think that the blood of Christ is not redeeming enough to cleanse you of your sins? do you think that self-abuse can result in sanctification?
why do others often mis-interpret your intentions? its been almost 3 weeks now, and nothing seems to have been resolved still. left wondering whatever went on, and whether it can be resolved now. many always come with good intentions, only to leave discouraged and shattered. maybe it was better if i kept my mouth shut in the first place..actually, no i dont really think its my fault. is it wrong to stand up for your actions? if you know me well enough, i will strongly stand up and retaliate for what i believe in. maybe its just that you dont know me that well after all.
in a world where purity is being degraded so rapidly, will there come a time where we live for the moment, doing as and what we please?
im no superman, just another human being, with emotions and feelings. just another human raised up for His glory. where is the wrong in that?
if only one knew how exhausting it can be to be battling on two fronts: one; the vices of this sinful world, two; the inescapable reality of the persecutions everywhere.
