Sunday, December 24, 2006
~ 12:58 AM ~
its so late, and for the first time in a long long time, im actually blogging? hmmm, still gotta wake up at 7am tml for church..
been wanting to blog about my trip and all, but i guess fatigue has really been the main cause of not blogging, not to mention laziness. plus im kinda caught up in the flurry of gift wrapping, and it takes 15 mins for me to wrap one present. dont ask why, guess its just the way perfectionists do things; dont kinda trust anyone else to do it for me too:) but hey, thats not really the true spirit of christmas right?
i know one thing i learnt in this trip was about giving, and for the first time in my life, i can honestly say that i have been giving with a cheerful heart. i used to do it so grudgingly, even for offerings in church. i can still hear myself say "$5 can get you a fast-food meal, so why give it to God?". and its so true, the reason why i couldnt give before was because of my materialism. i always wanted this and that, everything under the sun. i wanted an iPod (though i have one already, but its so bulky), i wanted a PSP, i wanted to repair my PS2, i wanted to get the original version of Final Fantasy 12 and the guidebook..i wanted..i wanted. everything was about me and what i wanted..
but as i come out of the trip, im beginning to REALLY see that these are things which i can survive without. almost 2 weeks without surfing in a internet-deprived society kinda made me realise i could actually survive without the computer, and that there was a much better way for me to spend my time! not to mention the redundancies of the iPod and gameboy that i brought there..
so tomorrow is going be the first test in really giving with a joyful heart, but i believe i can do it. in fact these few days i have been giving and giving, and its really a joy to see people's face light up when you give them a hope to continue on living. recently just adopted a child from world vision - a 5 year old Filipino boy. every month it is a commitment to give $45 to support the child. this is something new for me indeed, but i know that God will surely bless that child and his family with the money recieved! and while we in Singapore are so blessed with so much, i think that $45 a month isnt too much to ask for. its $1.50 a day to save for the whole month, but if you dont think you can come up with the full sum, why not share it with someone else, like your siblings?
in a way, i want to get my sister involved in missions too, so i also want her to contribute $10 to the overall sum. like i said it may nor be much, but hey at least it is a stepping stone. make your giving according to your allowance lest God makes your allowance according to your giving. thats the true spirit of Christmas, in which God gave His only Son to die on the Cross for the redemption of our sins and eternal salvation. what more could we give back for the children that God loves so deeply? anywayz, nuff' said coz im really tired. plus waking up early tml isnt exactly helpful. and the constant weight on your mind of what is going to happen in church for the first time after 6 weeks..
whatever it is God, i commit all these into Your hands for Your glory. i reufse to be discouraged, but instead to continue striving on for the Lord!
