Sunday, November 19, 2006
~ 9:13 AM ~
well thats it, im in the airport terminal already..using the free internet access here.im quite scared of transit and all, but I know that im under God's special care..
please continue to uphold me in prayer. shall see you guys back in 2 weeks!!
kk really gotta run. time's running short. cya!
Saturday, November 18, 2006
~ 4:15 AM ~
im left with two days and i havent even packed!! maybe i should just follow what jian horng has said - to go in faith and not bring anything. actually the more i think about what to bring, the lesser things come in my mind.
its getting late, or early, anywayz i dont think im in the right frame of mind. randomness
the more i think, the more i dont understand why people do not see mission as a priority in thier lives. who am i to judge anywayz, im just a young kid without a career or certificate, not to mention family and life..but this i know, when Jesus left His disciples nearly 2000 years ago, He gave them but one task; namely, world evangelisation. Imagine Him saying to them something like this: "I am going to leave you and i will be gone for a long time. While I am absent, I want you to do just one thing. Give the Gospel of Mine to the entire world. See that every nation, tongue, and tribe hears it."
those were His instructions. that was the one thing He told them to do, and they understood Him perfectly. But what has the Church done during the years He has been absent. Have we carried out His orders? Have we obeyed Him?
Here I am, send ME.
maybe its really because i dont have a career, nor a family to think of, so im more free to do mission work. but since i have started out young, honestly, i dont intend to stop. people go for missions with many different reasons, some for an eye-opener experience, some to seek God, some to help the needy, and even some for the sake of a shopping holiday under the pretext of missions!
me? i vividly remember my days in kindergarten. how hyped up i was about singing praise songs to God. how i pestered my parents to bring me to church. and how i enjoyed singspiration and Sunday school. initially i wanted to go to church for fun, to make more friends and have a new experience. never did i expect God to work in such an impactful way. the bottom line is THE JOY i found in Christ. and this is my mission, this is what God has placed in my heart. to bring the true joy of Christ to those who are still lost to darkness. in thailand, you see children, so much less fortunate than us, yet radiating a joy that we all lack.
no roof over their heads? no problem
not enough food? no problem
no God? no problem
and thats my concern, with that last statement. even after lacking so much, they are still happy individuals, huddling in the warmth of familial bonds. and we, even though having so much, we complain of inferiority, that we dont have enough and stuff like that. the children there are already so happy with what they have, that even another pillow is considered a luxury to them. and it really pains my heart, to see such gleeful faces when you play with them, that they have absolutely no idea where they are headed to after death. how much more can they be happier with the true joy of Christ in them? thats my mission, to share with them what Christ has done for us, death on a cross for the redemption of sin, and see their faces when they accept God's gift of eternal life.
maybe one day the flame will die down? i know it has many times already, but everytime, God gives me more oil to keep the flame burning. for those whose fire has died down, this is God's call to you "Come, all who are weary and i will give you rest" Claim His promises and blessings, and you will find peace in Him.
i have got my life more or less set out already. next year is gonna be my only free year in teenage life, guess not many have thought of that. and i want to do something for God, namely missions. after wednesday's missionary thanksgiving dinner on doulos, i really set out all my options, and given deep thought on this matter. what am i really going to do in life? am i really willing to commit my whole life to God? am i ready to die for my faith? will i allow God to take over my life completely, even if it means sacrificing a comfortable lifestyle?
i know many will say im too young to make such important decisions, but God has already laid out my path for me. dont ask me how i know; i just do. next year, i wanna go to serve 2 months on board the doulos. sailing around asia and reaching out to the lost. the minimum age requirement is 18, and im only going to be 17 next year, but i pray that God will open that door for me. if i can survive life on the sea, or even if i cant, i will serve 2 years onboard the doulos, maybe even more if God prompts me too. all i know that no way am i going into the corporate world. its too politically filthy and corrupt for me, and im not going to be entangled in that mess.
and i know the devil is going to attack me in every way possible. and i foresee a difficult life adapting to school and everything, the friends that i make etc. maybe i dont have many friends because i am looking for different things at this stage. i guess no one will ever really understand how deep God has impacted me in secondary 1..maybe im really called to spent life alone, as a faithful servant of God. i dont know Lord, all i know is that my life is in Your hands, and i trust that You have my very best interests at heart.
why can't man just appreciate nature in God's eyes. the beauty and sophistication of all created things? everything has to be made understood by man, how birds can fly, what the composition of sand is, why do objects fall to earth etc. everything that has been so beautifully created by God has been reduced to mere equations and formulas, that we fail to see the underlying beauty of His works. the sky, so alluring in it shade of azure blue, has been reduced to nothing but water vapour. reproduction, so intriguing how God created the human body, has become a taboo topic among mankind. life, created to be enjoyed , has become a source of hate and despair. God, creating us to praise Him, has become the oulet for us to place all blame of sufferings and tribulations on Him. what is happening to the world? do man really believe their ancestors were monkeys?! do they really believe that the earth and everything on it was created out of nothing?! the more one thinks of it, the more it becomes ridiculous..
Heavenly Father, this is a heart-felt prayer for all of mankind. Lord, you see our hearts, and you know how dirty they are. even our good deeds are like filthy rags to you Lord, and Father we know that we can never amount to anything. But Lord, I pray that you open up Man's eyes to what true love really is, that there is no greater love that one lays down his life for his friends. And you have displayed that act of true love, when you sent Your only one and begotten Son, to die on the cross for the redemption of our sins. He that was holy, pure and innocent, took the blame and suffered under the hands of the people that He came to die for Lord. Father, I thank you for that act of selfless love, and Lord I pray that you will open up the eyes of ALL the people in this world to what You are doing. Help them to understand Your heart and intentions, help us to grow to be more like You each day Lord, and help us to love our enemies as ourselves. God, I know you want our hearts to draw near to You, and I pray for a conviction You set in these people's heart, that You reveal Yourself to them and let them know that You alone are God, and that they will come to receive You open hearts; one day the whole earth will be singing prasies of Your second coming. I know that nothing is impossible to You, and through us, You send a wide-spread revival among the people.
In Your Son's Most Holy Name I pray,
Amen
[rachel] i thank God for you chancing across my blog, and i hope that God has spoken to you. its amazing how God works, that even though we do not really know each other on personal levels, we could have talked like just now, just freely sharing about our lives. and i pray for you that you will continue to be a beacon of light to your friends, and that God will use you mightily in the furthurance of His Kingdom. I really thank God for you sister=)
