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Monday, October 30, 2006
~ 2:20 PM ~
was just looking throught that post i put up last time about the youth leaders. you're not gonna find it here but ya, i keep it to serve as a reminder of what i wanted in YZ..

committe retreat was really interesting, and i dont regret going to it despite O Levels and all. not one sigle bit. many new revelations, as well as relationships patched and friendships strengthend.

so a whole new structure is going to be implemented next year, and im really excited about how God will use us to change the culture in YZ. im sure the four of you are too..*ponders about what to write* [hmmm i really should have blogged yesterday because i had a lot of things to say, but now its kinda lost..haha]

anywayz i think looking back at whatever has happened during the retreat, the things i talked about..i just hope it doesnt end there but it sustains throughout our 3 years of service. im just kept wondering what's happening in my life now, if i have a limited capacity for the number of people there can be in my life..

friendships once so strong..
passion once was great..
and love once so abundant..

not that i have lost any of those, but im just thinking especially in midst of our major examinations, where are our priorities set at? haha maybe its just me cause i see things differently, and i dont think anyone will really (i mean really) understand what its like, not knowing what to do when you have your earthly responsibilities on one hand and God-given responsibilities on the other. what happens when both clashes?

which is gonna come put tops? im left thinking what many of us will answer. say now is a perfectly good time to review your commitment. actually there's a reason i wanna share for my mindset, but i dont think anyone will understand, so i will just leave it as it is..for now that is.

for the people whom havbe slowly faded away, i wanna relight that flame and bond. while im steadily enjoying myself in YZ, im losing the things i had in the past. how ironic. its really like i got a limited capacity lor. if there's input on one side, there's output on the other.

eddie asked me once why do i bother so going so far every weekend when there's a church in my local community. simple: my ministry is there and there's where God wants me to be. im not going to leave just because im unhappy there. i used to stand by one truth: i go to church not to seek personal fulfilment and attainment but i go there to glorify and praise God. so yeah lor, i guess non-christians wont understand, but when you are touched by God, thats all that matters.

and after all christians are humans too. they make mistakes and stuff like that. christians aren't all holy, pure, blameless or sinless..at least i know im not yet. im still an unrefined product and i make mistakes, lots of them in fact. but well, im learning, and commiting them at the same time, but i know at the end of the day, i know where i will be.

looking through some messages and rethinking through the people in my life, im really left hanging. i really wanna do something to reinstate the friendship lor. someone once wrote this for me..

"anyway daryl
i want u to know
i will always be here for u lah
we can run this race together
we can do it!
and i will do watever it takes to pull u up
when u are down
pull u up, and continue running
i wont let go of that grip, daryl
this is my promise to u"

"we can wait
even if we have to
at least i know i can
if God willing, that is"

oh well, whatever it is, im leaving it into Your hands. lance, en, dora and rachel, yeah im really looking forward to next year:)

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