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Thursday, July 06, 2006
~ 10:46 PM ~
leaving you.

somehow those words are etched deep in my heart. wanting to do so, but yet unable to. lucille's words ring deep in my heart. maybe the only reason that He cannot use me fully is because of YOU. so many drops of tears shed, so many emotional scars scratching me, so many memories to let go. in the end is it worth it?

i dont think so. as much the wind howls and the sea beats, one just can't force love. maybe its really time to move on with life. just another fragment of memory, sweet and wonderful, but like the jagged edge of glass, cuts you as deep. a permanent scar forever etched there. never healing, always wounded.

i have said it so many times before. yet one after another, that determinence is broken. where's my resolve? i really wanna get over you, but im also not willing to let go. so selfish. just so selfish. looking back on all the hurt and pain i inflicted on myself. maybe one day i will laugh at myself for being so silly..

one day..but not just yet. i wanna cherish the moment of having you right beside me, yet im chasing for something so illustrious that will never come true. if your heart finds a place in him, what right do i have to stop you? takes me just so long to understand that love cannot be forced. or is it even love? or being in love of being in love?

so many more things to do in this world. why am i spending so much grieving on broken mirrors? they just reflect a distorted image. a false hope, a facade, a LIE. things of the past...forget them.

let you go..and i will be free.

"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past." Isaiah 43:18


[to you] sometimes it seems like i dont care about anything that happens, but deep down inside i really care. i just want you to know that you have lots of great friends around you, and whatever happens, be it for better or for worse, i am very sure that they will always stand by you. never feel alone because you have them. people who care, people who love you. never forget them.

and i dont think i have ever said this, but now i wanna say it one last time.

i loved you.

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